?

Log in

No account? Create an account

the bad lass revolution's Journal

Friday, July 21, 2006

3:41PM - NEW STUFF TO SCORE IN ALMOST ALL STORES!

bad lass press
bad girl designs
bad lass revolution
manic lass
AND NOW!!!

hey malice productions
where you will be able to find my BRAND NEW BOOK of prose "the echo survives the voice"!!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

3:25PM - x-posted

the 3rd copy of my book - ANOTHER INVENTED DISEASE has been bought! *cue super extreme happy moment - !!!!*

and in honor of the fact that i am in SUCH a good mood, said book is now ON SALE! so get it while it's hot and cheap!

Thursday, July 7, 2005

3:34PM - hi!

I just thought I'd say I joined. I am Jess, aged 19, living in Omaha, Nebraska, USA, and I write poetry and listen to a lot of Suede, Kylie, Mansun, The Cure, and Tori Amos. I went and skimmed the community and Emily said just to post whatever, including introductions, so here's my introduction. LOL

I'm kinda boring.

J.

Current mood: blah

Monday, July 4, 2005

3:41PM

broken sentences

i borrowed every broken sentence
from your mouth
epitomized the sadness
in a brush with faith
& all of those back up
singers sound the same

so i'll just carry on as i began
like sand falling through my fingers
a collected ruin in my hands
it's all so solid, a recreational
drink now & again, stuttering
to stop until you land in my lap
keep dreaming

of towers falling & suicide pacts
getting closer to the facts &
tumbling like bricks on my head
terrorize the fear inside to
let me breathe in open air
crush me & tell me you care
for happiness & empty songs when
we all sound the same

& once upon a time i was game
for anything & above all
the pitiful way that we crawl
on hands & knees to break
up the monotony of every day
living in a catastrophic movement
a dadaist explosion
hold on, the flowers still
are coming up, please tell me
all of the pretty things that
we used to be

care for me, when all
of those back up singers
sound so much the same
keep me safe tonight
keep me safe, all right, it's
going to be okay, a way
to end the day &
sing another song
or say so long, just keep
those broken sentences coming

until i learn to speak.

2:30PM - ANOTHER INVENTED DISEASE

so far two copies of the book have been sold - one of them was bought by me though, so it doesn't really count. still, i am excited to see how it turned out, to see it in print. it's always exciting to see something you've written come out like a real book - well, to be a real book. i worked so hard on that project - i put a LOT of hours, days, months into it and i'm hoping that it will be able to help someone someday to read it and know that they're not alone.

it goes down many roads - alcoholism, eating disorders, self harm, depression, suicide, etc. sometimes the writing is very brutal and somewhat graphic, but it's my thoughts, my words, my poetry and prose - exactly what i was thinking and my train of thought was sometimes somewhat battered and awkward, drugged or just lost, but it is all true and all real, it's all me. and if someone out there can connect with it and cling to it or learn from it, than i will have lived through all of this for a reason - not just as a messed up learning experience for myself, but as a way to help someone else through my own pain and triumphs, to show even one person out there that they aren't alone. that, i think, is something that everyone needs - to know that they are not alone and that someone else out there has gone through what they have gone through and is there to tell the tale.

maybe it will help you - maybe it won't...but i hope that you will read it.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

2:08PM - the return of bad lass

hello everyone, i'm finally back from detox hell/boredom/loneliness and am here to bother everyone (except leigh) for not buying my new book. :( nah, i totally understand, but you SHOULD buy it, for the sexy cover shot alone. c'mon people, get movin'!

love you,
emily

Saturday, May 28, 2005

5:29PM

emily's new book arrived this morning! I'm about quarter of the way through, but already there's been some outstanding poetry, and some heart-breaking journal entries. I can definitely recommend it, if you still haven't decided whether or not to buy it yet.

Friday, May 20, 2005

4:10PM - excerpts from another invented disease

"I feel nothing but this numbness. I don’t understand the point of getting out of bed or eating or speaking or doing anything. I just can’t stand any of it. It’s all so fucking pointless. I wish I could feel. And even through my numbness, there is a mental pain because physically I feel nothing and I wish I could feel, even if all I feel is pain, at least I’d feel something. I just want to feel something. Physically I’m so numb that I feel dead inside and all I want to do is talk to someone who can tell me it’s going to be okay"

"9:12pm: Practiced for an hour. Feel really dizzy and am bumping into shit and being a wreck. I wish I had more sleeping pills, make myself a bigger wreck. Come on, come on, it’s fun. Celebrating a month without booze with pills. 6 olanzapine and 2 oxycocet. “Why do anything when you can forget everything?” Wish more time had gone by, wish more time would pass. That the pills would hit me. Hit me hard, hit me in the face and make me sleep. I want someone to hit me, repeatedly hit me until I fell down. I want someone to kick the shit out of me."

"1:07pm: I’m in the ICU right now and have been since last evening. Before that I was in a bed in Observation, I think, waiting to come up to ICU because I wound up feeling really bad and telling mom about the pills. I’m at the Queensway Carleton. "

"I feel really depressed. I don’t remember going to bed last night. Everything in my life is either foggy, lost, broken or painful and chemical. I hate myself for it. This is purgatory and I created it. This is my punishment for the overdoses. If I can’t get into treatment at the Royal, I don’t know what I’ll do. It’s all my fault. Maybe I’m not sick enough, I don’t know. Probably not. I mean, I’m not a junkie – I’m just a stupid bitch who drinks. I just had a shower for the first time in days. I’ve either been too depressed, too sick or too Emily to have one. I haven’t written a poem in days. Pathetic. And I call myself a writer? Bullshit."

2:54PM - another invented disease - is out!

http://www.cafepress.com/badlass.22742365
Another Invented Disease
by emily alice stephens!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

6:42PM

Just want to wish Emily the BEST OF LUCK with detox! :)

<333333

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

10:37AM - the new book

it should be out this weekend! get excited people!

Sunday, May 15, 2005

5:55PM

http://www.cafepress.com/cp/prod.aspx?p=badlass.22467835

richey
:)

4:40PM - a poem, x-posted to my livejournal

in grass & cracks

in a dream - a scene of broken
glass i slash my skin

blood on the hardwood
seeping into the cracks

& that's where i live
that's where i've been

hiding, slipping, sliding
down into the cracks

of my family, society
myself & it feels like home

it feels like safety,
security, a place where i can

be me, but i'm not me anymore
i'm not emily, i'm dying

& the insects are the only
ones watching, as i respect

the ants & never trample
their homes but they avoid

the cracks, so i am all
alone.

4:25PM

THE RULES:

there are none! or else it wouldn't be anarchy! but if someone posts anything too fucked up or dangerous, you will be taken care of, if you know what i mean.

post anything you like, post about your day or what you're into, introduce yourself, have fun, chat with memebers or the revolution and become friends. we're all in this together. through fashion, fiction, non-fiction, writing, art and msuic, we will take over the underground!

join in, be part of something dead cool and fun!

xoxo

Friday, May 13, 2005

2:07PM - my book

the book that i'm putting together about the last year or so is almost complete. for those of you who don't know it's journal entries, poetry and prose from august 2004 until april 2005 during which time i was in detox, rehab, cutting, drinking, overdosing, in the hospital and starving myself.

i have a question...what do you think i should name the book? give me a couple of names and i'll think about it. i'm struggling with the name every day and have decided i need some outside suggestions.

thanks!

12:45PM

punks
'cause punks have more fun!
http://www.cafepress.com/badlass

12:14PM

badlass

tales of a bad lass! my first book, check it out at http://www.cafepress.com/runrunalice

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

6:40PM - welcome!

welcome to bad lass revolution! enjoy yourself!